Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.

– Oscar Wilde

Last week I started clinical hypnotherapy to help get the last parts of my disordered eating under control. I’m extremely hopeful that it will help! While I’ve improved in leaps and bounds over the last year, I’m still not quite there.

I’d spoken to my psychologist about it and she thought it a wonderful idea too. We had quite a discussion about it and how it could possibly help, but of course you have to be OPEN to it working. I not only want it to work, I NEED it to work so I’m as open as heck about it!

I’m sick of craving bad foods all the time and often eating until I feel sick, just to make me feel happy. Addictions are hard to beat, and when it’s something as readily available and acceptable as junk food, it’s so hard! Birthday? Have cake! Promotion? Have cake and champas! Unwell? Here’s chocolate! Depressed? A tub of ice cream will help! These are the norm of society. Junk food is a reward, something to help you feel better or happier. It’s been drilled in. When my son was so unwell, the only joy I got from life was food and so my addiction began.

I know I’ve come a HUGE distance but now I need to find the happy middle ground (between no cares and eating ALL the food, and stressed to the max trying to control myself every moment of the day) and I’m hopeful that clinical hypnotherapy will get me there so that I’m able to live a well balanced, happy, and healthy life.

I will keep you updated on my journey as I go along. So far I’ve had 45 minutes of actually hypnotherapy (the rest of the two sessions was consultation time) and so far not much has changed. BUT it doesn’t necessarily happen immediately so I’m not worried. I did find that during those two times I was ridiculously relaxed and that is the most amazing feeling!

Have you had clinical hypnotherapy for anything before? How did you find it and were you OPEN to it? Comment below.

“Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.” – Judy Garland

I love doing make up. And I love when my friends and family have costume parties! Last week, I decided I wanted to combine make up with cosplay (not for the first time), just because!

I saw somewhere someone put up a photo of Pizzazz from Jem. For those under the age of 35, Jem is a cartoon from the 80s that stared Jem and her band, the Holograms. Their rivals are The Misfits, and Pizzazz is their lead singer. As Pizzazz has green hair, and so do I, I thought WHY NOT!

So I did a bit of research, looking at the different ways her make up has been done, then sat down and did it!

Have a look at the result below and tell me what you think in the comments. Do you like to dress up occasionally too?

“Normal is not something to aspire to, it’s something to get away from.” – Jodie Foster

Wow! What a 30 days!

It started out positive and then it went downhill from about two weeks, but blow me down, I did it! It wasn’t always perfect (not even close), but I succeeded at my goals. Mostly. And I had a loss which is even better!

And yep, you read that right. This busty lady dropped a cup size, yahoo! About time too. Sometimes there is just too much curve, and this lady is glad to have dropped at least a tiny bit.

“In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.” – Coco Chanel

Tuesday I began a strict 30 day eating plan because I’ve got doctor’s orders to lose weight. Today is day 5 and it’s already been such a rollercoaster!

I should explain why I have doctor’s orders to lose weight… Yes, I’m overweight. According to blood tests though, I’m perfectly healthy. I’m not on any medication and I don’t have a bad self image. BUT I do have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Spondylolisthesis which is a spinal condition. Due to these two conditions, my weight has become an issue and I need to rectify it. Even worse is that I was gradually putting on more and more weight. It would have eventually become an even bigger problem.

Day 1 as it turns out, was easy! Day 2 and 3 I struggled, bad! Day 4 was better (I did sleep for part of the day though, haha) until late afternoon, then my belly decided to rebel! It wasn’t bad and didn’t last long, it was also expected, so I wasn’t too worried. Today, I’m feeling much better. After another sleep in! I’m just going to keep busy.

I’m truly excited to see what the next 30 days brings. Giving up junk food when you have an addiction is hard but it’s for the best! And being able to fit into all my old clothes again… Well, that’s priceless!

I will have an update, hopefully with some results at around day 9. See you then!

My top tips? Get rid of all the bad food from th house, avoid temptation and stay busy!

What are your best tips for weight loss? Let me know in the comments.

I didn’t mean to disappear straight after my welcome… But life can be challenging, right? We all have our ups and downs, things that keep us from other things. In my case, it’s chronic fatigue syndrome and an autistic teenager.

My teenager was discovered doing naughty things and then ran away from home. We’re very close so this was quite stressful and upsetting! Even though it was only two days, haha! Have you had a child run away? I’d love to hear about your experience. I never thought mine would run away but I was wrong!

On positive note, last week I started clinical Pilates. What is that, you ask? It is pilates run by an osteopath that is specifically designed for those with injuries and chronic conditions, particularly of the spine or joints. It’s great! It’s gentle on my back condition, but helping to strengthen the muscles to support it better. I used to be an aerialist but had to give it up after I herniated a disc in my back last year, completely unrelated to my regular spine condition! The disc is healed now but I know I have to be careful. So the pilates is great. It has set off the chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS) though. Flares are horrible and debilitating. This will improve with time so I’m not too worried.

My old kitty cat, Gremlin, had a tumour removed from his leg very recently too so I’ve been looking after him even more than usual. He turns 17 in a couple of months and is diabetic. My precious boy is still fighting fit and going strong!

Next week I start my weight loss journey. To help my back and CFS I need to lose weight. I’m under doctor’s orders. I’m nervous but excited! I love food so it will be a challenge. Do you have any tips for me? They would be appreciated! I have about 25kg to lose. Would you like me to keep you updated?

After all of this… Can I catch a break? Of course! Even with all of this (and more) I’m an eternally positive person. Sure, I get down sometimes, we all do! But I can always see the silver lining and I keep on going. Do you?